Without some mystery, some sense of the unknown, I might not manage everything that comes along with painting: the isolation, the expense, and the feelings of rejection, elation, triumph, satisfaction.
The unexpected and unknown aspects of my practice remind me of the stories of Greek mythology, where the challenges of the Gods force the characters into creativity. With my work, I gravitate towards challenging myself and finding new modes of creativity.
I’m not interested in trying to control the process of a painting; I keep working the canvas until I see something I’m satisfied with, though not necessarily what I imagined. What emerges is a different vision of the world around me, a slightly altered reality with order and smoothed over edges. Painting en plein aire brings me such euphoria that my feelings are invariably captured in the painting, elevating reality. The weather, the light, the breeze, and the moods of the place all affect me deeply, and incorporate themselves into the image.
Much of my evolution as an artist occurs between each painting, while I am just living, unaware of my creative process. New visual ideas, new ways of approaching my work build up in my subconscious, manifesting the next time I pick up a brush.